It's been a year...?

Exactly one year ago today.... Four tornadoes touched down in my city. I remember it clear like it was yesterday. I was sitting at my dads girlfriend's friends house to babysit her four boys. We were just all outside playing. Then the scream of the horns went off. We all ran to the house... seconds later we had the neighbors in the basement because we were the only house with a basement on that street. I remember holding the boys and praying for my boyfriend and family to be safe. It hit the house... everyone in that basement screamed and held tight to the basement poles. It's something that most people never think would happened but did. As fast as it came it was gone again. I called my boyfriend only to get his roommate answer the phone to tell me he was getting dug out of the trailer and the house that it was thrown into. My heart stopped dead. I called my mom, dad, and the mother of the four boys and told them  I had to go. I booked it to the hospital and ran through it to find my boyfriend.  No one died on that day... the only one who was seriously hurt was the one I wanted to be with for the rest of my life. Now we are almost cleaning up the damage from that day. I am just glad that I still have him in my life and that I lost no one:) I just hope I never have to go through it again.  

Secrets that should never come out...

Ever had a deep dark secret that you don't  want anyone to ever know? I had a deep dark secret but a person who was apart of it opened their big mouth and now the whole school knows about it. Problem with this one some one might go to jail because of it. I just don't understand why people do this, I mean everyone wants to hurt some one. I am not a popular student in this school. In fact I am far from it. It just makes no since to me at all. Human nature is sick and disappointing at times and that's all I have to say but their are times when its magical. Life is a war of Love vs. Hate that one side never seems to win. Did our creator make us this way just out on a whim or for a test? Everyone has heard about December 24th of 2012 and how the world is going to end on that on and only day. We believe anything that anyone we may trust say just because they have power and most of us don't. Government has secrets they hide from us and we still trust their work. Why is that? You look at any country and their government and its the same thing no matter what. I would love to know what really goes on. Secrets that are hidden from others that look up to you is not the best choice. For me secrets hurt but this one I just wanted to go away and leave but its out and around and I can't stop it. In school you have the Preps, Goths, Rednecks, hiphops, Drama Group, Band Geeks, Techpeeps, Skaters, Druggies/stoners, auto/tech ed grads and the floaters which go into more then one group. When you live in a town less then 10,000 people word spreads fast and you get noted as that person who did "that".
I will never understand why we hurt each other or how we can do it and live with it forever.